When I was down in the coffee shop this Thanksgiving Sunday to grab something to drink, I glanced down to read the horoscope that they had posted by the cream and sugar. This is what I saw for mine:
The more you do for other people now the more they will do for you later, so provide what it is they need and do it with a smile on your face. Your generosity will come back to you many times over.
I have been raised to act with good intentions all the time, to help those in need, to never cheat or lie to others, and have always been thankful when someone does do something for me. It has never been at the fore-front of my thoughts, but lately I have been starting to wonder, “At what point will this generosity come back to me?”
Now, I’m not one to crave money nor attention. Some grateful thank you’s are all I really need, some conversation thrown in now and then maybe, or, at the very least, a smile. When I have loaned out money to others, I have never demanded repayment quickly or set any terms on it. It was never that important to me, which is probably one of the reasons why I am so poor with handling it when I do have it. I almost seem to prefer living a life in near poverty than I do of luxury.
Money is only one example of how I have been helping others through my life. Time and knowledge are the other things I have been quite willing to donate to others. Such things are difficult to pay back because they are nearly impossible to quantify. They are also things I don’t expect to be paid back in any form. All I ask is for my gift to them to be recognized and appreciated.
I have been so completely willing to devote time to others to help them out, rarely saying no to anything, that it is easy to depend upon me. I will always be there to pick up the slack, cover shifts when required, be on call for late night technical problems, help book tickets or make purchases online for people who don’t have credit cards. Knowing that I am there and willing to respond in a positive manner makes it easy for people to abuse me. More often than not, I help someone out of the blue, and then they disappear to the way side and I hardly hear from them until they need help the next time.
Needless to say, I have a lot of karma in the bank. Or I would like to think I do considering the outstanding debts of several people and the tasks I have done for others in this past year.
What I am wishing for is a way to withdraw that karma from my savings account and apply it to my life to give me a bit of a boost in some areas. Have a new car waiting for me, find a $100 bill on the ground, or even just win a free coffee from a Tim Horton’s Roll-Up-The-Rim-To-Win cup once in a while.
A common phrase I have heard through my life is everything happens for a reason, so it is quite possible that I haven’t reached that point where I deserve to be paid back.
I really hope it comes soon though.